I am so not writing my proposal. AGAIN.

My proposal hearing earlier this month resulted in a request for revisions! Yay! Which are totally valid but make me think, why am I revising a PROPOSAL? Isn't the point of the proposal to, well, propose something? And then you get feedback and then everyone moves on? Apparently not. Mentally this has made me slightly on strike but it is also the holidays and I know my institution of higher learning will not reconvene until late January, so why do anything now? Except go to the library and get a big stack of books so that it looks like I'm working on something?

Ethnographic fieldwork is a slow, slogging process and unless you are in with your group before the fact don't anyone tell you otherwise. Seriously, it's to the point where I'm considering switching my study to upper middle class mothers on antidepressants, even though it has nothing to do with language. Because I actually know a few of those. I don't know anyone who is a native speaker of Language Z (which is not even endangered, as I recently found out, which just shows how much of an idiot I am) and why should I? And why should they want to know me? And why do I have to spend so much time getting to know them when I'm 36 and want a career already and THIS IS ALL TAKING TOO LONG waah waah waah?

I could continue on in this highly discouraging vein, but I'm doing so well at procrastinating that I really don't need any extra help.